I was just thinking to myself. And I notice that I've been talking to myself, and pretending that I'm talking to Qey a lot these day. Maybe because I miss him so much, but there are times when I caught myself missing Albert as well. So it got a bit confusing. Anyhow, it's not the matter of who I love or miss more; I love and miss both of them, only in a different way. And both of them are not here now. I'll tell how different my feeling for them later.
This is a poem for Qey, actually.
Staring at the moon tonight,
The full moon, round and bright,
I couldn’t help thinking of you,
Of what we used to be and do,
Wondering who’s in your life now,
Who is she, where do you meet and how.
Does she wishes you good morning,
And kisses you good night,
Does she stay by you when things were bad?
And tell you everything’s alright.
Does she laugh at your lame jokes,
And puts up with your temper,
Does she know how to clean and cook,
Or am I better?
Does she worry over you,
When you got sick,
Or when you’re in need,
She’ll disappear in a blink.
Does she listen to your problems,
And tries to make you feel better,
Does she wakes up at 2.30 am,
Just so you can watch soccer.
Does she mind waiting all day,
For you to call,
Or listen to you talk about motorcycles,
Even when she thinks it’s dull.
Does she care about your family,
Or is she all about money,
Is she the girl you want to make your wife?
Are you sure she’s the love of your life?
I don’t really know why I’m writing this,
When I should be studying Spanish.
But all I know to be true,
Is that no one loves u like I do.
So I hope somewhere you’re safe, healthy and happy,
So, the reason I had this blog on the first place is to share what I've been through, and you might not understand what I'll write about if I dont introduce the characters first. (As if this is a novel. Duh!) Anyhow, for your information, the names used here is not the real names. Only the people who know me would actually know who they are. This is for privacy purposes. :)
Alright, this is it :
:: ALBERT : He was one who came and swoop me off my feet, but end up breaking my heart.
:: QEY : The ex I never got over of. Probably never will.
:: NEO : He was once my close friend, but for reasons I don't know, we stopped talking and ended up pretending we never knew each other.
:: EZEY : My first love/crush. Don't feel anything anymore for him, but he's still dear to me. Known him since I was 12 years old.
:: TAN : My other ex. I'm still fond of him, but in a you're-too-good-for-me kinda way. He's now happy with somebody else, and I can truly say I'm happy for him.
Guess that's the important ones. Others came and go quite without much impact to my life, but those are the boys/men who made me the way I am today. There are some others that a good friends of mine, friends that actually care about me, and to them I am eternally grateful. My story will revolve most on Qey and Albert, because they are the recent one's, but the others also have their part in this.
How's that for the first entry? Anyhow, I just want through a (bad) break-up and a friend of mine suggested that I start a blog. So here i am, writing my heart away. I never had a blog before- sure, I love writing, but mostly I write to myself, and not let anybody read it. But now, somehow I wanted to share what I've been through and the journey i went to become a better person. That's why the tittle is Lost and Found. Hopefully, I would gain some wisdom from all of this.
Well, i should first introduce myself. But I'm not very good at it. All i can say is that I'm a simple girl whose blessed with amazing family and wonderful friends. Without them, I'm practically nothing. I want simple things in life : a happy family, good friends, enough money, not-to-bad grades and a guy who loves me. And the guy part is what lead me here, writing about this. I've seen good, and I've seen bad, but all that are worth the while.